Khayalan

Seandainya kau tahu
Seandainya kau menyadarinya
Betapa aku menyayangimu
Bahwa ku ingin selalu bersamamu

Hatiku yang telanjur menyayangimu
Apakah mungkin bisa tanpamu di sisiku
Yang biasa menemaniku
Melewati hari-hariku yang sepi

Kamu

Tahukah kamu?
Dulu aku mengagumimu.
Melihat senyum mu, jantung berdetak perlahan.
Pandangan terpaku padamu.
Sekelilingku berhenti.
Hanya ada aku dan kamu.

Namun dirimu, ku tahu itu.
Tidak sesuai dengan harapku.
Kau anggap diriku biasa.
Adik yang hanya mengagumi kakaknya, tidak lebih.
Aku hancur.
Diam tanpa kata, termenung sesaat.
Ku menyesal, menyesali saat itu.
Dimana ku jatuh hati.
Kepadamu.

Sekarang ku berpikir.
Aku kan lebih baik.
Jika dari awal tidak mengenal mu.
Sekarang yang ku lakukan hanyalah melupakanmu.
Melupakan semua kenangan.
Menghapus semua rasa.
Yang ada di benakku.

Aku tidak akan jatuh.
Jatuh karena semua itu.
Karena ku bukanlah manusia yang lemah.

Cintaku

KADANG AKU BERPIKIR.
MENGAPA KU SELALU MERINDUKANMU.
KADANG AKU MERENUNG.
MENGAPA KU SELALU MENCINTAIMU.

AKU TAHU INI CINTA.
TAPI KU TAK INGIN JADI DERITA.
BIARLAH AKU YANG MENGALAH.
KADANG KU MENANGIS.
MERATAPI KEKALAHANKU.
KARENA KU TAK BISA MENJAGAMU.

KARENA BEGITU LEMAH DALAM MENCINTA.
MUNGKIN ITU KELEMAHANKU.
TAK BISAKAH……
AKU MENDAPATKAN KEKUATAN DALAM MENCINTA.
MENDAPATKAN KETEGARAN PADA KEKALAHAN.

BIARLAH IA KE HATI LAIN.
ASALKAN IA BAHAGIA.
ASALKAN AKU BISA MELIHAT IA TERSENYUM SUDAH CUKUP.

CINTA TAK HARUS MEMILIKI.
ITU YANG TERPIKIR OLEHKU SEKARANG.
KU HARAP BEGITU.
KU HARAP AKU TAK AKAN MENANGIS.
BILA KULIHAT IA DENGAN CINTANYA…

>>ME AND YOU<<

At first time I met you.
I don’t realize anything from you.
I think you don’t like me.
I think you played me.
I think you just using me like a doll.

It’s all because you don’t care.
You leave me behind.
So I left you.
Left from your side.
And tried to forget you.

Forget my love to you.
Forget my feelings to you.
With another person.
But that person isn’t like you.

I miss you, but I don’t trust you.
Why, why you tried to make me be with you.
When I’m already far far away from you.
I don’t trust you anymore.

But time by time.
Day by day.
I realized.

You really need me.
You really love me.
In my little heart.
I said, “I LOVE YOU TOO.”
But I’m scared, you broke my heart again.

Day by day.
You make me realized.
Your feelings to me is pure.
No fake heart.
No lies.

So I hug you back, put you back in my heart.
You change me.
I change you.
“DON’T DISAPPOINT ME, DEAR. I LOVE YOU.”
Please don’t go from me.
You always be in my heart.
Forever….

Wishing…

I wish you were here.
And raising up my mind.
I wish you were here.
And warming up my heart.

I wish you were here.
When the sun showing its arrogant light.
I wish you were here.
When the moon calming the darkness of light.

You are the only one.
You are the precious one.
You make sadness into happiness.
You make darkness into light.

My dear, please come back.
My love, please come to me.
I’m searching you.
I’m seeking you.

You always in my heart.
You always in my mind.
But I’m losing you.
And I’m dying without you.

I wish you were here.
And standing close to me.
I wish you were here.
So I can hold you tight.

I wish you were here.
And see your smile once again.

“This is our feeling, not only mine.”

this is only the feeling what i have now.
disturb me.
than disturb someone else.
this is very annoyed.

i wanna break this feeling.
i wanna thrown it away.
but i can’t do anything.
i can’t erase this feeling.
go away from my mind and my heart.

i don’t wanna lose you.
i wanna be with you.
than those words suddenly change.
i wanna erase you from my life.
i wanna dodge from you.

i’ve tried everything to handle this problem.
share with my besties.
than they give me the way and some reasons.
i try to do that.
but i still.
still can’t forget.

one day i attempt to disappear.
but one night my cell was ringing.
huh someone contact me.

every time i “do-or-die”.
someone surely come back.
just like he/she doesn’t wanna lose me.
whereas i want lose you.

i don’t think it would like this further.
‘cos my mood easily changing.